She plays Hearts with the Fates,
interrupting the counting of years
and every time she shoots the moon,
Skuld threatens to cut her thread.
She used to be in love,
she drew the pictures
he wrote the songs about,
it was love, it was love,
it was love
like love could only be.
Now she lives beneath the roots
of the old world tree,
weaving the tapestry of fates
with those three.
She plays Checkers with Hel,
letting the damned roam around
and every time she gets to the end,
it starts all over again.
She makes apples pies with Idun
and she forgets the sugar,
whispering how life is bitter
and it is a shame to mask all that.
She
They were the best of friends,
living in the same small town,
both gave up everything
for the confessions they told
but they never told the truth
about that September night
and now they'll hang
in late December.
They'll hang until their feet touch the ground
for the crimes we all have done.
They'll hang until they fall to the earth
punished for a life they lived.
They swore to never speak
about the lies they had told
or the truth they had to live,
the people they were to ruin
the night they shot the moon
because one goes for the other,
never letting either one drown
in the frost-covered waves.
But they could never guess
t
Past twelve on another day
that girl sat in the lamplight,
watching the few pass by
She never thought she'd be here,
here at midnight,
she never thought she'd be here,
over that boy.
Dust-covered moths by the lamps,
searching for what she had lost
but she's out of reach, too far up,
above the earth, above the sun,
that girl is sitting on the moon
praying her midnight never ends
She never thought she'd be here,
here at midnight,
she never thought she'd be here,
over that boy.
He doesn't love her anymore,
she never loved like that before
and all those promises said
hide like the life at midnight,
that's why she's sitting th
Those old men and those young women
dressed in suits to disguise their lives,
walk through the lobby with cash in hand.
They close themselves behind the doors,
returning to the only place they hate
but they need it like a stain hidden inside.
All of you are going down, going down, going down,
all of you are going down for your work, for your pay
then you get back up and it starts all over again.
Eyes looking around, never making contact
with the others in the very same situation,
struggling for a chance to breath in this place
and those old men touch those buttons,
taking those young women to another floor.
Turn on the lights of
Beautiful boy, tell me your secrets,
And I will tell you my lies
we hold each other on the floor
desperately grasping,
desperately search for something
but don't make meyour inspiration,
I don't want to be your muse.
I ain't your mother,
go back home for one of those.
I ain't your lover,
I've got on too many clothes.
Sing me a song about Josephine,
tell me all about the world
with the tangerines,
you want to be in love with her
but she's just a song to me,
she's just one more lie in my life,
whispers on a piece of paper.
I ain't your mother,
go back home for one of those.
I ain't your lover,
I've got on too many clothes.
Hey there, Mary, what's the story,
saw you lying there on the bed,
your skirt above your scabby knees.
Just another hot summer night
and you knew, you knew you'd decide
even if it would cost that much,
after all you wanted to sin.
Just tell yourself there was still love
in that sticky sweat-covered room.
And the clock was ticking away,
the cigarette, still on your breath,
not saying anything out loud
because the silence sounds better.
But love, that unlovely species,
too tough to die, too proud to stay,
turned into a Catholic's story
if there ever was one of those.
How high is the price for secrets,
for the murder of a child
Dear you,
Here is a letter
but it isn't a b or c
or even "x o x o"
(we're not playing
tic-tac-toe)
written in pencil
except
the hearts are in ink
it's black w/ white
beneath like
a box with a bow
tied around
my heart as I find
notes to you (from me)
tucked away
in books, lost
or maybe it's found
on a dusty shelf
that would make you
sneeze if only
you were here
but (dot dot dot)
With(out) love,
me
another year passes
by, quickly as the color-
changing leaves,
dancing on a stage of air
except for that one
falling off, falling out,
going away from the other
high-up-there leaves
if only the sputlight never
joined those
kind of green, kind of brown
leaves, lifting up with the
mild breeze, then jumping down
now that the wind,
or is it still the breeze,
pulled the leaves
quietly into the drama,
risking everything that
should have been left
that way as
unusual places come from
vast dreams like those
willing leaves, just falling as
x marks the spot so why don't
you start counting down to
zero as this story ends here.
Waiting As If It Was Yesterday by aphonic, literature
Literature
Waiting As If It Was Yesterday
You were sitting there, looking away,
sipping wine from your champagne,
waiting as if it was yesterday.
Trying not to be just another cliché
and hiding every piece of your pain,
you were sitting there, looking away.
With your thoughts in disarray
along with your clothes and that stain,
waiting as if it was yesterday.
Your memories were out on display
but you couldn't help feeling plain,
you were sitting there, looking away.
Even though it was always today,
you continued through the mundane,
waiting as if it was yesterday.
And I stepped towards the café,
but even dreams never remain,
you weren't sitting there, looking away,
w
I never told you I love you
b/c I never wanted to lie to you
or get that pinocchio-nose
I told you (nearly) everything
except for those three little words
eye-love-you
and I knew through the grapevine
"hey-he-loves-you"
but this sweetness of those grapes
could never last
'cause grapes turn to wine
and wine turns to us with a grin
"hey-he-loves-you"
and now the question is raised
like those walls around us,
blocking, rocking, everything
that we actually did love
and I love (you) hot chocolate
with those mini-marshmallows,
like you'd bring me with just
one
rose b/c a dozen's cheap to me
so we kiss but it's not on my lips
The Man in Black never dies,
and has no lost loves
or ones to mourn as he crawls,
through the graveyard of sand,
past the bleeding,
or pained, moon.
The lightening falls near
the Man in Black,
and thunder follows his every move.
But he never dies.
The endless desert and the
crosses of none, nothing, but
everything matters to him.
Through the pelting rain and the blood
washing away,
the Man in Black carries himself
further, never relenting,
always chasing his prey
through life.
The Man in Black never dies.
Laying down, on starvation,
against her horrid table
with those demigods watching,
lost in the saving graces.
Lie awake, think of all the worries,
following you to the pit,
where the slaughtered roam,
and the memories and,
the thoughts cannot be obtained.
Decaying knives stab in,
taunting you with hunger
in a foreboding hell.
Sacred spells, forestall the death,
delighted in this guise,
of ancient deities who rule,
and banish ones,
to the dark region of the dead.
Every direction, every precaution,
cannot elude the punishment
with the venom, dripping down,
causing the cries of the slain,
to hide beneath the shadow of the su
Broken glass lying under fallen leaves,
shining slightly in the bed of orange,
dying and changing, with each breath
that the wind takes, stolen from the tree-
now bare and naked, freezing
as the autumn strips the tree more.
Leaves race across the sidewalk,
chasing the summer as it runs away,
singing the only song they know
with that crinkling laughter all around.
Shattered pieces fall away, into the mud
that tempted those leaves to jump in
to follow that window of once-upon-a-time
and trapping those guillible leaves.
Snowflakes fall as the leaves wither,
no longer the brilliant colors of fure
but sharing the mud for a face
as
Those dreams, once lied, now true
With barely a whisper of anything but pain
What I thought, may not be
And loved you once but hate turns
He wish me dead, along with you
And I... wish me dead too
As you look into that rusty old mirror
You can see every mistake you have made
That relfection of you is here and there
Lying about that saviour to you aid
Misplaced scars from your past threaten your life
And force you to remember what you failed
As you fight that addiction to the knife
Believing your future will be derailed
Silent cries and scars that bleed they ignore
Before the shattered mirror, watching you weep
And you wish to be everything adored
Risking your life as you fall in too deep
Battling for everyone to approve
Of all those illusions you wish to remove
I wonder if anyone has thought about me. In more than just the normal 'oh, who is she' way.
These part few days, thinking about how many (or how little) friends I have left, I started to think, I really do need somebody there who will wonder about me. And I tried to think about who that person could be and I couldn't think of one single person. How sad is that when all you want to do is be next to someone or just imagine you are next to someone and it's blank?
But why should there be someone there?
There is nothing special about me even though I have written many things like this to prove that there is something. I am just a sixteen year o
Chapter One: Introductions of Nothing
Hikari looked around the Digital World. She needed some time to think before returning to Japan. She hadn't seen anyone for so long, besides the dying population of the Other World.
"Hikari?" a familiar voice asked from behind. She turned around to see her brother. His face was full of surprise and puzzlement. "Why are you here?"
Hikari tried to think of an answer but she couldn't lie to Taichi, "I left the Other World because almost everyone is dead. Kurumi, Takeru, and I stayed there to try to stop the man in black from killing the survivors but his work is done. They're all dead."
"I don't understa
There's a monster in my closet,
hiding in the shadows
with his blood-stained claws,
waiting for me to enter.
That monster is watching me,
just praying for the light to flicker
to pull me into the closet
and tear the flesh from my bones.
The monster laughs in the dark
as I fight to stay in the light
but nobody can see the monster-
(he is invisible in the light)-
hiding inside of my closet
and they won't believe me
about the monster in my closet.
There's a monster in my closet
and he wants to take me away
into that grotesque world of his-
filled with the smell of decay
from the children he has killed.
The monster stares out
She was a gypsy girl, traveling around
to all of those poorhouses
looking for somebody to love her
but all she has ever known is loneliness
and her vagabond ways (oh yes, those ways)
She was a gypsy girl, singing along
to that music that never stops playing
as she walks that empty road
without one word to anyone passing by
and her vagabond ways (not only that)
She was a gypsy girl, lost and alone
through those not-so-endless nights
and she is just a throwback
to those old times when you believed
and her vagabond ways (not quite)
She was a gypsy girl, sensual no more
as she dreamed of those better days
that never seem to come
the boy trudge on through the listless air
that can't be air at all
with its squeezing and choking hands
and the sharp fangs searching for blood
but he continued, knowing all who died
but not even that at all
and he couldn't see through that green sea
sinking down and crowding at his feet
pulling him down to his very own grave
just not his at all
he knows he has to go on for himself
and for everyone who has died behind him
laying on the blood-covered dirt, all alone
but that isn't at all
and the boy continued to trudge on
noisome • NOY-sum • adjective
*1 : noxious, harmful
2 a : offensive to the senses and especially to the sense of smell b : highly obnoxious or objectionable
an update on my life:
the last day of school was yesterday and graduation is on tuesday. it still hasn't hit me that i will never go to high school again. maybe on tuesday.
well, i get the keys to my new apartment soon and i will see what happens in my life. i am done making plans.
Main Entry: im·mac·u·late
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English immaculat, from Latin immaculatus, from in- + maculatus stained -- more at MACULATE
1 : having no stain or blemish : PURE
2 : containing no flaw or error
3 a : spotlessly clean b : having no colored spots or marks
- im·mac·u·late·ly adverb
I have possibly just made the biggest decision ever.
I am not going to the community college in Pullman anymore. I am not going to live with my friend.
I am going to move to Seattle and get a cheap studio near my sister. I am going to get a job or a couple of jobs until I can attend Seattle